This is our second Christmas without you here, another day where I wonder what you are doing up in heaven and what you would be doing if you where here with us.
What is Christmas like is Heaven? Do you celebrate by praising our savior for being born? Does Jesus have a huge birthday cake where you all sing "Happy Birthday" to Him in unison? What do you get someone that has everything? I can only imagine that Christmas in heaven is beautiful and I absolutely can not wait for you to show me how Christmas is really done.
I wonder a lot what it would be like with you here with us. Would you be more mesmerized with the boxes your gifts came in than the gift itself? Would you know how to open your gifts or would your big brother have to help you? Would I have even put my good ornaments on the Christmas tree this year or would I be telling you to leave the tree alone at all?
We love you Spencer and we miss you always.
Time seems to be going by so quickly but I remind myself often I am one day closer to getting to hold my baby again. The holidays are never easy when you miss someone that has died. It is always a time I feel like we long for our Spencer more and although this Christmas seems easier than the last it doesn't mean that I don't think about what it would be like if he was here THIS year.
Since last year I have been searching aimlessly for the perfect ornament to put on our tree to go along with ours. See, my husband and I have a Precious Moments for our first Christmas we were married, my son has a Precious Moments for his first Christmas, and our angel that tops our tree is Precious Moments. So I have been hunting for a Precious Moments ornament for Spencer but I did not want a baby's first Christmas since technically he did not have that with us. As I am searching this year again, I find the one, the PERFECT one!! I was so happy and overjoyed that I found it.
Right before Christmas as my son and I were coming home after I picked him up from school a song came on the radio. I don't recall hearing the song before but I felt like it was a good reminder for me to trust God. I know that sometimes I have moments where I question Him but in the end I need to trust that He is holding me and has a plan that is perfect for me.
As we head home from my husband's parents for our family Christmas we stopped by Spencer's grave. We were unable to around Christmas time due to the rain we had received in the Houston area. It is so peaceful where he is buried and we really love the place we chose. Below is some of the pictures from our visit at Spencer's grave.
Time seems to be going by so quickly but I remind myself often I am one day closer to getting to hold my baby again. The holidays are never easy when you miss someone that has died. It is always a time I feel like we long for our Spencer more and although this Christmas seems easier than the last it doesn't mean that I don't think about what it would be like if he was here THIS year.
Since last year I have been searching aimlessly for the perfect ornament to put on our tree to go along with ours. See, my husband and I have a Precious Moments for our first Christmas we were married, my son has a Precious Moments for his first Christmas, and our angel that tops our tree is Precious Moments. So I have been hunting for a Precious Moments ornament for Spencer but I did not want a baby's first Christmas since technically he did not have that with us. As I am searching this year again, I find the one, the PERFECT one!! I was so happy and overjoyed that I found it.
As we head home from my husband's parents for our family Christmas we stopped by Spencer's grave. We were unable to around Christmas time due to the rain we had received in the Houston area. It is so peaceful where he is buried and we really love the place we chose. Below is some of the pictures from our visit at Spencer's grave.
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| Bubbles for brother. |
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| My son is into silly pictures now. |
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