Thursday, February 13th, 2014 - 26 Week High Risk OB Appointment

Before I update regarding the appointment I wanted to share something that I read recently.  A friend of ours sent us a devotional book and the first day I read it, which happened to be my birthday, struck a cord with both of us.  It was so fitting for what we are going through and brought tears to my eyes as I read it.  I often need reminders lately to trust Him and His will for our son whatever that may be because His plan is not always what we have planned in our lives.  

"I am with you and for you.  You face nothing alone - nothing!  When you feel anxious, know that you are focusing on the visible world and leaving Me out of the picture.  The remedy is simple: Fix your eyes not on what is seen but on what is unseen.  Verbalize your trust in Me, the Living One who sees you always.  I will get you safely through this day and all your days.  But you can find Me only in the present.  Each day is a precious gift from My Father.  How ridiculous to grasp for future gifts when today's is set before you!  Receive today's gift gratefully, unwrapping it tenderly and delving into its depths.  As you savor this gift, you find Me."

Today as I drive downtown I think about how very reminiscent this all seems. It has been one month since we found out the news of Baby Nelson and it still seems as unreal today as it did the day we found out. I traveled to see the high risk OB the Monday following finding out and here I am one month later going to see him again. Today is my 26 week check up and I will say that every time we have to go to these appointments it is very bitter sweet. I am blessed to see our son and hear his heart beat, but at the same time getting confirming news on his condition is still hard to hear. 

Today Baby Nelson was weighing, according to sonogram measurements, 3 pounds 13 ounces, 2 pounds more than two weeks ago. The doctor said that our son is a big boy in general but tells us that his tummy is measuring the size of a 34 week baby.  The reason for his tummy being so big is due to dilation of his bladder, ureters, and kidneys. As some may ask, is he in pain or suffering because of this.  The answer by the doctor is since babies don't have complete development of nerve endings quite yet is that he would hope not. Unfortunately since you can not test babies in utero or otherwise it is hard for anyone to know this. Our thought is that he doesn't and maybe this is just a way for us to feel ok about everything going on. Another measurement we got was his leg bone - it is measuring as a 28 week baby.  He did measure his bladder and it was 3.2 cm. On January 30th his bladder was measuring at 3.5 cm. He stated that his ureters are very dilated and this is from backup from his bladder. His heart rate was 128 today.  My husband asked the doctor today if he has ever seen a miracle baby with a case such as ours. He said that he has seen miracle babies before but not with conditions similar to our son's.  We are both aware of our sons condition and what we continue to see and hear when we go in to these appointments, but we still would love for God to grant our son with a miracle of complete healing as most parents would. 

Again, we are still in continual prayers for our son and God's will for him. We are truly blessed by all the support and love we have received during this time.  Thank you again, we are truly appreciative of it all.